Things still seem pretty spinny in my head at the moment about life in general. I think the lack of a clear direction is playing havoc with me. Had this image popping into my head of me as a sequence of lens arranged on a vertical pivot, set up to focus a beam of light energy when they were properley aligned. Each pivoted lens is like an aspect of my life – physical activities, job, etc. At the moment they’re mostly spinning round randomly, occaisionally coming into the same orientation and making me feel more focussed and energised. Then they spin apart again.
So now I’m just taking a few days to calm down at home and go sit in the sunny woods to think about everything. Hopefully this will allow me to see how to align all those lenses up and forge on with renewed purpose.